and when people goes "im happy with my results",
i go "cibai siak ! i dont deserve to be in this class!"

seriously, that was what i said okay.
i mean, i TRIED to study real damn fucking hard for physics especially.
nevertheless, i FAILED for the i dunno how many times.
i really think im not studying hard enough.
studying hard, but im not studying smart.
ahh bacen . those extra works ive done? still not enough sehh .


RESULTS SUCKS AS IT IS.

English : 54.0 C6 [ 1mark to C5 ]
Malay : 67.3 B3 [ 3 marks to A2 ! ]
A.Maths: : 59.4 C5 [ 0.6 marks to B4 ! ]
Maths : 65.2 B3 [ im happy (: ]
Chemistry : 58.5 C5 [ 2 marks to B4 ]
Physics : 43.0 E8 [ 2 marks to D7 ]
C.Humans : 48.8 D7 [ 2 marks to C6 ! ]

Total : 396.4 / 700
Percentage : 56.6
Conduct : VERY GOOD

Class Position : 20 / 40
Level Position : 86 / 205

L1R4 : 22
L1R5 : 29

Comments: Atikah is a pleasant student and a responsible leader, both as a Prefect and a St.John's Leader. She needs to take the initiative to clarify her doubts in her studies. Work harder,Atikah!

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as you can see, results are very POOR.
no use studying sehh - USELESS. PATHETIC.
why cant i be like nadia? 3e4 but 50th in level position.
or or mengting? good in ALL subjects except language?
or maybe ayuni? playful but still excel ?
eh wth ! kay i conclude that i, Siti Atikah , am very useless in education.

im happy , as well as JEALOUS to the max that my sec2 sjab jrs , are really excel-ing.
Farah : 4th in level , 2nd in class.
Aishah : 23rd in level, top 3 in class.
Alif : 29th in level, 3rd in class.

oh and also liyana , 14th in level, 10th in class.

see ! dorang pandai. asal i cannot be like them !?


okay . no more slacking. no more outings.