sometimes being all emotional is the best thing to do. especially when you're facing alot of problems, and knowing that it would only make matters worst if you were to share it with your peeps, even if they're your closest ones. being in this kinda situation is never cool. maybe it all started from me. maybe im the choosy one. maybe im the irritating one. maybe im the one . i don't know. it all depends on our different perspective. sometimes, even the bestest friends don't share ALL their problems to each other. some problems are meant to be shared with different people. and by doing that, you might think that you're not someone i treasure. by doing that, you think that im just using you. by doing that, you're treating it as if the friendship is nothing. wow, thats cool. tell you what, i never thought about it that way. your point of view and MY point of view is WAY different. i know that you hate it when i share about bgr stuff. maybe its not what you like to hear about. and if i were to share, okay once i did share with you, you gave me this whatever kinda treatment. yeah, well thats what i feel. but if the problems are something thats regarding my studies and my future, i come to you. why? because i know you're the one i can count on. but no, you never treated it that way. you never think about it that way. i dont know. maybe it all started from me. maybe you think that i dont treasure the friendship we had since january 2005. maybe you think that i think that you're the extra one out.

sometimes, saying all this doesn't help. sometimes things are meant to be left unspoken. lets just leave it as it is. no, im not running away from my problems. i just need time to think. i need time to be alone, to reflect and to know what to do next. oh great, so in times of need like this, who do i turn to? im confused. im lost. im sad. im disappointed. im angry.

by hook or by crook, holiday assignments to be done by TOMORROW.

its not revision , yet.